Jealous much???? YES!!!!

WARNING! Harsh and perhaps unrealistic overgeneralizations to follow...

I cannot believe that school has already started... I am reminded how much I HATE THIS PLACE!!! (This place being Binghamton University). Perhaps it is all the mindless kiddies whose mommies and daddies pay for their lack of education (you certainly cannot call it an education that most of them are getting...).



Maybe I am just jealous...



I sit there during my classes listening to these little bastards talk and talk (about nothing I might add) and I wonder do they care AT ALL that they are distracting me so much that I cannot hear the lecture? NO! They do not and believe it or not, I think that may be what I am jealous of the most. Oh yeah, I am jealous that they are not, on the main, going so deep into debt that their grandkids will feel probably end up an endentured servant. I am of course envious of the fact that they, many of them at least, are young and have their whole lives to screw up, whereas I have already screwed up a good bit of my own... I am also jealous of the fact that they, again many of them, seem to have all the time in the world to waste doing whatever it is that moronic college students do... but perhaps the thing that I am the most jealous of is the fact that they do not care... about anything but themselves. Most of the little assholes seem so oblivious to everything in the world that is outside of their tiny little existence and, this is where the jealousy comes in, they seem to be much happier because of that. What I mean by this is that unlike my parents generation who at least in part seemed to want to change the world, the kids of this generation (I think we are onto Y... who the hell knows) seem to be totally and completely content to just keep screwing it up and as long as it doesn't affect them DIRECTLY in a way that they can understand they just do not care.



So they walk by us as we stand vigil against this illegal war of aggression and scoff at how we waste our time fighting a lost cause. The vast majority of them are absolutely apathetic to the injustices being perpetrated in their names all over the world.



That is what it comes down to, I am jealous of their ignorant bliss...



Well... at least I am able live with myself, but sometimes I wish I didn't see it all, sometimes I wish I was not so totally affected by it. Alas, that is not me and many close to me might argue that it is my passion (translation: overly emotional and dribbly), my empathy for others (translation: I care too much and have inside me a closet optimist), and my need to stand up for what I believe in (translation: am sick of taking shit from everyone) that they love the most. Sometimes I really think it is a curse... but, in the end, it is what makes me and keeps me...



As always,



The Ranting Dyke

PS To those wonderful college students who DO care and DO work for real positive change, I LOVE YOU! Please not think that this rant is directed at you. It is not!! The truth is that the only chance this world has for a reasonable future is you, in spite of the apathy and uncaring of your contemporaries, PLEASE keep up the good work!!

Time keeps on slippin....

OK... Well I am not going to promise this time to keep up with my blog everyday or anything but I think I have to at least make some kind of an effort. With everything that is going on... STILL... it seems that I would be remiss not to at least pipe up occasionally and maybe even share a little of what has been going on in my own life.

For all of you purists out there I can hear the groans and cries of "asimilationist" already but you can just shut the he11 up!

I GOT MARRIED this summer!!!

And NO NOT to a man... although my honey is one of those "Secret" women... you know "Strong enough for a man but made for a woman" LOL!!!

Enough silliness though, there are a lot of reasons why we did it, perhaps most importantly, it turns out, is to get a chance to celebrate with our friends and families, a chance to become "part" of thier community... (more on that later). For now I will say that this Bridezilla did NOT kill, mame and or otherwise torture anyone... (I know somewhat disappointing) and the whole day was actually a wonderful day!

I will talk more about that later though, for now I want to just say one thing... MAN it feels good to be a second class citizen and all those stupid fuckers who cannot bring themselves to think homos and marriage in the same thought need to just get the hell over themselves and finally admit that "seperate but equal" didn't work the first time and chances are it won't work this time either... so much for hindsight being 20/20!

I think I will stop there for now, I have to walk the dog and deal with the Terminix guy who will be knocking at the door in just a minute...

I promise I will post a few pics and get to more of the details about the wedding later!